Remember how dad got so frustrated with teaching me how to bike that you stayed out on the driveway with me and helped me learn? He was ecstatic when I finally could balance on that bike without falling. Remember when I was in high school you got into an argument with mom and dad so I could have a choice in having a high school experience without IB? My last year of high school when I finally quit IB was such an important year, if not the most. I discovered a viable career option, and I found classes in high school that I was finally able to take that have been so important to me in my first year of university.
You were there for the big moments - the moments when it really made an impact on my life. Sure, you missed a few douchebags here and there, and maybe some parental drama. But in ways, it was important for me to experience those shitty times myself; these experiences taught me to be strong and independent. It also taught me that people aren’t always going to be kind; people can be hurtful.
And it hurts me to see that someone who mattered to you was hurtful to you. It broke my heart when you came home so upset. I was so thrown and confused in regards to how I could ever make things right for you - and I was angry. I was angry because I’ve helped friends in their times of need with confidence and a feeling of capability, and here I was, lost, as to how I could help my own sister.
I learned that what you needed was a friend and a listener, this was foreign to me. I found that being complacent and engaging in a passive, background role as a follower wasn’t working anymore. It worked as kids, but you’re right: time changes us. We’re older (and you’re even older haha) and now we’re finally compatible intellectually. My role as a sister has changed to being more of an equal, and although I’m adjusting and it’s new - it’s the best part of being your sister. You top the list as one of my best friends.
Yes, university and the professional world will inevitably change me, and it’s sad to know that. But I am so grateful that you will be there to remind me of who I am and to challenge me to continue to strive to being the best person I can be. I’m also very grateful to be reminded that you will always take from your experiences to help guide me through my own.
I never knew life without a sister. I can’t imagine life without one, because I can’t imagine my life without you.